The Confessional

Well friends, I have good news and bad news. 

Disclaimer:  I grew up in the Catholic church, so I've got experience with these confessionals, if ya know what I mean!

I have to confess (yep, brace yourselves, this is the bad news)...

I've been hiding.

When I began this blog, I wasn't sure where I was going, or what I was getting into.  For this reason, I [personally] shared the blog with very few people.  As time went on, my journey continued, and boy did it get messy quick. 

Because my journey got messy, the emotions in my blogs were messy at times. 

Raw. 

Honest. 

Sincere. 

Each time I wanted to post here, I began to stop and think twice.  Will these words - heartfelt and honest, be hurtful? And the answer was yes, quite possibly so.  My messy journey, with all its unexpected twists and turns, and my ramblings here about them all could definitely hurt those I loved the most - unintentionally, of course.  But, unintentional hurt still hurts.  So...I stopped blogging.

Well, let me define S-T-O-P-P-E-D.

S-T-O-P-P-E-D = My fingers were not hitting the keys to get my ramblings down, but those ramblings were still clanking around inside me, keeping me up at night!  Night after night after night.  I had to get some sleep!!  But what could I do?!?!  Well my friends, can you say "BAWK BAWK!?"  Yep, this here chicken crossed the road and  "hid" on another blog site that I shared with even less people.  I picked up there where I left off here, and blogged away.  Whew!  I felt so much better!!  But boy was I was a chicken!!  Let me hear ya:  BAWK BAWK!  I was indeed sleeping better at night, well, that is until it all came full circle.  (Isn't funny how God doesn't let us stay comfortable for long?!)

I woke up one morning feeling guilty.  (BAWK, BAWK!) I had crossed the road, leaving you all behind so that I didn't have to fear the opinions of others.  I wasn't being fair to myself or to those of you who take the time to read my clatter.     

So, I did what any good chicken should:  I clucked (BAWK BAWK!) my way right back here!  (I was hoping you'd agree, we've hit the good news part.) 

And, here's why I'm back:

Proverbs 29:25
“The fear of human opinion disables; trusting in God protects you from that.”

I was letting my fear of hurting others feelings disable me.  My intentions are good.  My emotions are human.  My love is fierce.  God knows this.  He will protect me, love me, comfort me.  He will do the same for you, too!

I

am

a

good

person.

My journey is bound to encounter more messiness around the bend.  I'm in if you're in!